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Little Girl Heart
Hysterical emails and disturbing phone calls from my father’s wife alarmed me. “They’re watching him. The police are going to come and...
Pauline Miller
Mar 25, 20234 min read
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Being Foolish
My father used to light up when he was foolish. The twinkle in his blue eyes preceded a goofy grin and silent, shaking shoulders. Then a...
Pauline Miller
Jul 27, 20222 min read
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Seeing Me
I woke up in my father’s house, but I was afraid to come out of my room. I lay there in the guest bedroom, hiding from the sad and scary...
Pauline Miller
Jul 7, 20222 min read
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Punk Rockers Eat Shit
I never planned to vandalize the wall. Leaving the classroom was an act of self-preservation. Smothered by meaningless tasks that led...
Pauline Miller
May 23, 20203 min read
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Zany Courage
When Mom volunteered to host a wedding shower for her friend’s daughter, I’m sure she envisioned cute games, pretty snacks, and gifts. I...
Pauline Miller
May 9, 20203 min read
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Cool Confusion
The thick wedge of cake dared me to take it out of my desk. I didn’t care about eating the dry mass of vanilla crumbs, but I did care...
Pauline Miller
May 2, 20203 min read
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Joyful Puppet
Even in borrowed high-heels and two pounds of make-up, my fourteen-year-old self didn’t look old enough to enter a bar. The doorman eyed...
Pauline Miller
Apr 25, 20202 min read
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Delirious Therapy
The psychologist asked us our names and ages, and I could see mom visibly relax as we finally settled down and appeared to cooperate....
Pauline Miller
Apr 18, 20203 min read
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Made with Love
When I was around ten years old, my mom decided that we would observe the tradition of baking bread and bringing it to church on Easter...
Pauline Miller
Apr 11, 20202 min read
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The Dirty Circus
When I was eight years old, my family of six moved to an acreage. Visions of tree-forts and horses filled my mind. The reality was an...
Pauline Miller
Apr 4, 20202 min read
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No Damn Party
My daughter told me that she “Facetimed” her friends last night, and they played Hangman and Tic-Tac-Toe. I told her that when I was...
Pauline Miller
Mar 28, 20203 min read
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Islands in the Stream
Kenny Roger’s was my first music love. Kenny’s voice, the catchy beat, and the profound lyrics. The Gambler was the first song that...
Pauline Miller
Mar 21, 20202 min read
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